sitting around at lonnie's house right now and just basically messing around on the computer.
i lost my job sunday and it's details i rather not go into. so for now i am gonna take a little time off. help lonnie with creepshow his band and spend some time with him and help move him into my place and get things situated.
i like spending time over here mostly cause i have the internet that and there is tv. oh yes and the fiancee lives here so i always see him right when he gets off work at guitar center.
bleh.. i have been really tiered these past two weeks for some reason, that and being a bit sick to my stomach here and there.
i know you kids are thinking uh oh bun in the oven. well i took one test already and it came out negative but i am gonna retake the test on the 7th if my period has not come by then.
anywho.. i am gonna go my lovely hubby some food for he is getting off work shortly.

yeha it has been a while since i have updated mostly caus ei don't have a computer and haven't had one for a while.
but i am over at my fiancee's using his computer... yes that is right kids i am getting married!
weird eh?
never thought it would happen to me and especially here in new mexico.
well his name is lonnie lyver and he is a bass player for a local metal/punk band called creepshow.
you can check him out at www.myspace.com/lyverthanyou
he is a gorgeous 100% native american man. he is 35 and the same height as me. we have known each other for a year as friends and just recently it became something more and we decided that we want to spend our lives together.
we are gonna ahve a day of the dead themed wedding.
he is great he makes me sigh and melt everytime i see him. he treats me like a princess and a equal.
this is someone who i can say i was meant to be ith and grow old with.
yeah the growing old is another shocker.. i always never wanted to grow old and now it doesn't bug me. i want to have kids with him which is something else as you all know is a different mind frame for me.
we are moving in together into my apartment which i ahve around the university area and gonna make it our own little space and save up for the wedding and eventually a house.
i am going to be going to his tribes feast on november 12th and there is where i will get my native american name and become part of the tribe.
life is good for once and i am going to have a future.

news for today sean and i are back together.. that is all

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Boston paper does a anti-sg article

my b/f is gving away one of our dogs.. i have been with bonk since he was born december 28th 2004... sadness

just to make clear the linz i mentioned in my journal is not sg linz .. it is another person in my life that is a stalker not sg linz.. yeesh...

i have nothing against her so people should chill before they jump to conclusions.

this is a new site i willl be a model on

people bashing hot topic... yeah it's somewhere i work.. yes their coporate but what corporate enviroment is gonna have a pierced and tattooed ceo? eh? eh?
or how about what job in a shit town like albuquerque is gonna let you have tattoo and piercigs and let you express yourself freely in the way you dress?

ooo hot topic is corporate oo...fight the system..blah blah fuckinh bloody blah...

right same people that despise it shop there..and i see them on a daily basis when i ring them up...

you know this has been one of the better jobs i have..and i have had fucking shitty jobs...

i have even moved up in this jobs , unlike any other job i have

they give scholorships to their employees...they give most of the profit on band merch back to the bands.. does spencers do that?
they promote local shows and venues...

just sick of people and their shit talk

i convinced sean that in feb we will be moving back to portland.. i can't live here anymore.. i don't have any friends.. i'm depressed all the time. i miss people in portland like echo, jana, and genesis and all the other bunches of people i use to hang out with up there. i also knew my way around there and never had difficulty getting around on the bus system. i am pritty sure i can find a cosmetology school up there i can go to. plus i was looking at craigslist and apartments and houses have gotten cheaper up there , while they got more expensive down here weird.